annorexia is a skill, perfected by only the few, chosen, flawless and pure.
most people are controlled by food, only few can control it.
i dont care if it hurts. i want to have control. if i want a perfect body, i have to discipline my soul.
the pain goes away every time, but the beauty increases.
a moment of the lips is forever on the hips.
boys cant pick you up if youre too heavy.
hunger builds character.
good girls usually dont put it in their mouths, better girls dont ever put it in their mouths-they have better things to do.
need for weight loss surpasses want for food.
skinny is sexy, big isnt beautiful. THINK before you eat.
pain is temporary. pride is forever.
say goodbye to food, and hello to thin.
act as if it were impossible to fail.
eat only when you have to, not ever when you want to.
bones are clean and pure. fat is dirty and hangs on your bones.
guess what? you can starve off that fat, youre very lucky.
eating is comforming to everyone elses standards for themselves. arent yours higher?
thin girls are hot. thin girls look good in any clothes they put on.
eat nothing, be nothing, be perfect.
everything beautiful is fragile.
every day that i succeed, i step closer to thin.
the only true deprivation is not being thin.
beauty is as simple as hunger.
if im going to be alive, i might as well be incredible.
in order to be beautiful there must be something different in your behavior, and the way you look at food.
perception. what i feel is different from how i perceive how i feel. if i eat somehing really good...like an ice cream bar...if i watched myself eat it...
before i eat it: excited. rush of chemicals that prepare for euphoric feelings. eager. (1-5 minutes)
while i eat it: at first, euphoric feelings-dopamine, pleasant feelings, enjoying the taste, excited (1-5 minutes)
while i eat it: towards the end, full, not enjoying taste very much, filling emptiness but not of hunger (5-10 minutes)
after i eat it: guilty, think of what to eat next, anxious, confused, stressed, wondering when to start over
what i perceive as my wants are sometimes not really my wants. i get confused sometimes for a minute, or an hour, and start to agree when
thinking about how i want food, when really, i just want to feel how i feel when i eat the food. i may think i want an ice cream bar-but
my brain actually really just wants the dopamine rush and my stomach-i want my stomach to feel full, but it feels empty-so i realize i can fix both
problems with this ice cream bar, and plus i will enjoy the taste. i think i want it, and i can convince myself that even if i decided i shouldnt
eat it before, now i should eat it for a certain reason that my brain will come up with to change my mind, and decide that i was wrong before, even
if the reason isnt completely logical, my brain can convince me that it is a good decision to eat it, so that my brain gets it.
my perception of my wants are accurate only sometimes. that is the reason why i have experienced success only sometimes.
the easy part is the physical part. its easy to physically feel hungry. its easy to feel really tired because of the hunger. its easy to not
satisfy my cravings. its easy to feel cravings and not do anything about them. its all temporary, and its easy to distract myself. i even like
the feeling of deprivation-its comforting.
the hard part is the emotional part. its hard to wonder if its going to work or not-if im going to relapse. its hard to feel anxious about everything.
the hard part is going through it for the first two full weeks. for the first two weeks i will feel so anxious that im going to binge eat..
the whole time my mind is going to go back and forth, trying to decide whether i should let myself eat. its going to be really easy physically,
and really hard emotionally. i just want to get these days over with so i can get to the comfortable part-which can be as soon as two weeks from now...or
what is hunger?
the desire to numb your cravings. if all you feel is an aching twist in your stomach, then youre really ok after all. proving to yourself that
you can do the undoable. your happiness depends on how little you eat when you feel hungry and your brain is revolving around imagining what the
food tastes like. but each day without food adds up, and your weight begins to decrease, and now it all seems worth it. when you wake up in the morning
and get on the scale, will you make yourself happy, or sad? eighter way, youd rather be hungry. youd rather feel deprived, pure, light.
what is control?
its about holding on to the control-a precious balance. its listening to the right voices in your head and pushing your limits. its about not giving in
no matter how weak you feel, however strong the temptation may be. its about re-defining your character, youre only as strong as your state of mind.
being able to sustain yourself through sheer willpower. "i need nothing, and i will prove it" and so you do, day after day.
-you dont want to be the chubby girl in your group of friends
-think about how you can buy any clothes you want because everything will look good on you.
-i'll ride the wave. my cravings will disappear again after 10 minutes if i give my attention to something more important
-without control we have nothing. with control we have the power to get what we've always wanted
-starving is an exame of excellent willpower
-you will be able to see your beautiful, beautiful bones
-you will be tempted frequently. you will have to choose whether to enjoy yourself for about twenty minutes and get rid of the craving,
or to be different than the rest and stay hungry.
-its simple. you decide once and for all youre not going to eat, and you dont have to worry about any further decisions
-deprivation is liberation-tomorrow youll feel even more amazing the less you eat
-ive come too far to take orders from a cookie
-i am not one to give up a challege
-you might as well enjoy feeling hungry, after all, it is making you thin
-dont give up what you want most for what you want at the moment
-feed your soul by letting your body fast
-like a plant, the body can be trained to exist on nothing, to take its nourishment from the air
-if you close your mouth to food, you can get a sweeter taste
-i dont care if it hurts, i want to have control, i want a perfect body, i want them to see my perfect soul
-im not starving myself, im perfecting my emptiness
-dont eat. if you want to see food, look in the mirror at your fat
-the only freedom left is the freedom to starve
-good habits result from resisting temptation
-there are admirable potentialities in every human being. believe in your strength and your youth. "it all depends on me"
-act as if it were impossible to fail
-bones define who we really are-let them show
-fasting makes it easy to overcome bad habits and addictions
-how much food does your body really need?